Letter to my Subscribers

Saturday, November 6, 2010

"There is no way to be a perfect mother, and a million ways to be a good one." - Jill Churchill
Dear Whom this may concern,

Whether you are my subscriber, friend, family member, passer-byer, hater, no one...I felt the need to come from behind my walls and say something. A lot of people have felt the need to speculate what is going on in my life. I say speculate because there is really only two people who know the truth, Kris and myself. Yes we are no longer together and it has been a very difficult time for me. The rumours are flying around like the crazy and the people who start them don't know the damage it causes. I wish and pray for nothing but my family to be together, but the reality is this is no longer a possibility. It is unfair for people to judge me, and "recommend" how I should change my life to what they think is best for my child. I am doing the best I can without support. It is very difficult for Jude to be without me. He is not exposed to violence or any kind of abuse, Kris and I love our son very much. He is young and is still breastfeeding. He has some medical issues and his doctor commends me for continuing to breastfeed even though it is a daily struggle for me. My back is killing me because he is so heavy. I will do anything for my son's well being despite any reticule I might face. I do plan to return to school this up coming semester to not only further my education, but to provide myself with a strong successful future for me and my son.


I might not be what everyone compares me to and that's perfect. I am far from it and packed with flaws but I am doing my very best to keep a positive head on my shoulders so that I can be healthy and happy for my son. Jude is my love, life, light. Before he was alive, Kris was my everything. It was depicted through my blog, Twitter, MySpace, Facebook, and a lot of my YouTube videos. He was a huge reason I started my videos and kept going. Some where along the way things changed, and I had no choice but to except them. It has been hard for me to deal with or break up, but like everything, time will pass and I will get over it. I just ask now, for people to respect our privacy and not add to this hard time. I love Kris and will always care for him because he is the father of my son.

I appreciate the love, support, prayers, and words of encouragement.


*Latina Kisses*


-Sonia

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CC said...

It's sad that you even had to write this, but I seriously commend you for doing it. You are a very strong woman and you deserve a lot more respect than you are getting.
All the best for you and Jude (and Kris as well)
xoxox

michelle anne said...

I commend you for everything you do. YOu shouldn't have to write but this but there are people in this world who think you aren't doing the right thing. You are an amazing person and mother. <3 You are doing the best for you and your son. Good luck with school! (: I wish all the best for you Kris, and Jude.

xoxo
Michelle(:

Keirasluckycharm said...

I wish you the best and hope that you always stay strong for Jude.

Beauty♕Ambition★ said...

I cant believe you had to write this. It's no one's business what happens in your home and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. People are way too nosy now days and don't have anything better to do then to go around and spread rumors about someone.
Just stay strong, I know it's hard to ignore what people say but the only person that matters right now is your son. Live your life however you want.

Ally H. said...

Sonia,

You are an amazing mother. There are so many people that think they have all the answers, and most of the time it's people who don't even have kids. People don't understand how hard it is to be a mother, let alone a single mother. I'm about to begin that journey, and I'm scared and nervous. I will no matter what put both my kids first. I wish too that my relationship could work, but it can't and there's no need for my children to see their mom or dad unhappy. I commend you for being the bigger person and writing this, but there is not a need for you to reach out. You are a strong woman, you had Jude didn't you? You can do anything. You gave life to a beautiful being, and for that reason alone you ARE strong. You keep doing what you do ma, and know that your loyal followers will be with you.
all my love
Ally

Anonymous said...

i love your videos & your blog & im happy you are being strong. i wish i was as strong as you during a break up but maybe because there is a child involved it makes you much stronger because you have jude to protect im sorry things didnt work out with kris but god never gives you something you cant handle. & in time all will be okay. i just want to know what do u do to keeep your mind off the pain? besides take care of your beautiful son<33 im going threw alot & I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE TO begin to pick the pieces of my heart up off the floor

Anonymous said...

Stay strong, Sonia! You're beautiful and intellegent, and an amazing mother!

Anonymous said...

This makes me soo sad I've followed your videos from the very beginning and I feel so sad that you are going through this but you are a very strong woman and a great mother you will be able to get through this best of luck sonia!

Lauren said...

Girl, don't explain yourself to anybody! You are an amazing mother. I am still with my son's father and it is hard to do with help, I don't know how you are doing such an amazing job all by yourself. You and jude deserve the best and you are the only one who knows what is best for both of you!! <3

MemoryLovezMakeup said...

Some people in this world Sonia have nothing better to do than to judge someone or because they're jealous. I've been following your youtube channel for awhile and have always picked up what a great mother you are and the only person you need to prove that to is your son.Im a mother of 4 children 3 boys of which are special needs having severe autism and epilepsy so being a mother is a challenge and definitely a struggle but we have the hardest job of all. I admire your courage and honesty and wish you did not have to put up with peoples criticism after all i remember this quote 'Rudeness is a weak mans imitation of strength'. I guess these people are weak. Good luck for the future Sonia and you have a beautiful son.

claudettesmakeup said...

aww hun this made me cried dont worry hun everthing is gonna be alright those people they dont look at them selfs first screw them... you would always have us your subscribers.. we would always support you on anything especialy with jude :) love you mamash love and kisses.... give jude a big kiss for me muahhhhh... claudette

Liz Marie said...

You are such a special girl, and honestly I have looked up to you since I have started watching your videos. I pray that your things get better for you, and I know God has an amazing plan for you and your adorable son. Stay strong Sonia!!

Anonymous said...

Stay strong girl. You got this ;)

HollyElise said...

Like other commenters before me, I can't believe you had to write this.

*hugs*

Two of my best friends are single moms with children right around Jude's age, and those adorable babes are two of the most loved and adored children I've ever met. They, like Jude, are the center of their mothers' lives, and they bring light and love to everyone.

*hugs*

You are an amazing, strong woman and you are Jude's mother - I know you want the best for him and so that is what you will give him, no matter what the haters say.

Stay strong, bella.

Mei Mei said...

You're such a great mother... People need to stop with their ignorant comments about your life. I totally understand where you are coming from. I completely respect and admire you for confronting theses comments. I hope they will stop with all the nonsense. I wish you the best!

StephanieJaniceB said...

Sonia, I am so proud of you! You are a beautiful person inside and out and no one has the right to judge any decisions you make in life. What has happened to you is only going to make you a stronger person for yourself as well as Jude, when Jude grows up he's going to see how strong his mommy is, because I see it in my own mother who went through the very same thing. And my mom as well went back to school for us (her children) and we are so very proud of her! Always keep your head up! I wish there was a way your subbies could help!

Love always,
Steph

Anonymous said...

REMEMBER haters are just that HATERS they hate on what they will never be and never have. they have nothing better going for them than to follow some one else and spend their time finding the flaws.
i know its hard to not read what people say but instead of letting those comments brake you help them make you stronger!! i know its easier said than done, but i hope it helps. keep it in mind.
"KEEP THAT PRETTY FACE UP. THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT WOULD KILL. TO SEE YOU FALL!" <3

Claudia said...

Sonia thank you for opening up and letting us know what's in your heart. You will get thru this difficult time and come out a stronger person in the end. I know it's very difficult, but try not to even read what the haters write about you anywhere. The bottom line is that they are evil and jealous and want you to feel bad. Don't even entertain them. Do what you need to do to feel better and get ahead in life with your son. God bless you and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers always.

Anonymous said...

i look up to you for writing this. stay strong

Anonymous said...

Hope everything only gets better in your life, I am one of your youtube subc.I am sure you are doing all you can to progress in life, good luck you are a strong women just by writing this letter shows it.

Mer800

rainrae7 said...

As long as jude still sees his dad and has a relationship with him via visitaion thats whats important in his life and he needs that as much as the relationship with you.

Anonymous said...

People are seriously making rumors? That's sick.

KRIStinaROX said...

HOLA CHICA!
I posted a comment on your YouTube channel page about a day ago (kristyis03).
I just wanted to tell you that from the looks of it you are handling the situation very well. You have some great friends that are around when those solo moments come around and just need someone to help you get through them.
You have a very adorable son. And its very noticeable that you would do anything for him.
People change and relationships die but the mother-son bond that you and your son have will always be there and only get stronger as the years pass by.
I wish you the best in your endeavors.
I also want to say thank you for the blog posts and videos. You make me want to make some of my own. You are very inspiring!

MUCH LOVE from San Diego, CA

-Kristina!

Anonymous said...

I commend you for sharing this with everyone. It's your life and no one should judge you. I think your a great mother to Jude. And I whish the best for you and your family =)...

MakeupByPeggyL said...

i love you sonia!!! you and jude are going to be fine :) you are such an inspiration just keep doing what you've been doing because you're a great mother and don't let anyone tell you otherwise <3 you've inspired me in so many ways, i've even started making videos thanks to you. although i'm not a big guru or anything, i do it because i love it and haters will always be haters but you'll always have us and just remember that a lot of people love you

i wish you the best in everything beautiful!!!

Anonymous said...

i feel love you for sonia
im sorry if i have ever judged you inside my head and promise to always doubt my first impressions of someone and situation
i hope the best for you and baby jude because i was once a child with a struggling mother

Carol D. said...

This is an affirmation my dad taught me to say to myself every morning and i believe it works...
"I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, beautiful, lovely, harmonious and happy!"

don't worry be happy(:

Anonymous said...

Sonia,
No one but you and Kris knows what's going on in your relationship as Jude's mother and father. Don't let the neysayers get to you. You are a great mother and that's apparent. Anyone who has a negative opinion about your life needs to get one themselves. You are one of the only "gurus" whom I respect. Hold your head high and keep doing what you have been.

Marisol

Dayzee Dukes. said...

sonia,
you did not have to write this. you owe no one an explanation! nosy people need to back off. YOU NOSY PEOPLE are disgusting who ever you are. sonia, that is your life and no one else's business. I love your positive attitude andd makes me want to better myself. love you and little dunka!

Anonymous said...

what rumors. who cares. OMG!

lisi181 said...

dont get yourself down by what people are saying..no one pays your bills so don't give them the satisfaction of getting upset by what ppl say.if you and kris are not together it is no ones business and you are young and beautiful and a beautiful person so someone who is meant for you out there! just keep a positive mind and keep being a wonderful mommy!!take care xoxo

Esther said...

I Wish you the best with your son (and Kris of course), hold you head up high and never give up or let negativity to start building up in you. Always be the person you are and please take your time. We'll wait until you've balanced everything well. You are a great mother and keep up your work
We love you <3

-Esther

SAUCY | f. | BABY said...

I don't understand why people would start such malicious rumors about you & your family. It's absolutely disgusting. You're human like everyone else. I don't know why people would expect you to be perfect. You never had to share your talents with us, but you chose to do so. I'm personally thankful for that. Your videos are always real & helpful. I love how you put your son in your videos. Some people would never do that. You're a strong woman & Jude is lucky to have a Mom like you. I wish you, Jude & Kris the best.

xo Nicole

Louise said...

Oh sonia! There is NO need to explain yourself! We all know your an amazing mother, you can tell in your videos, pictures and blog! I really do hope for the best for you, your beautiful & really brave for all of what your going through!

xxxxx Lou

Linda said...

After having read this I just had to leave a comment. It pains me that people are so cruel. You and your family have been for some time the highlight of my day. I always watch your videos with a smile on my face, mainly because of the warmth and love you irradiate. I do hope someone will help you trought your hard time, the way you have helped me trough mine.

katsue said...

Sonia, you're great person, and I'm really sad after reading this. You deserve the best, and it is hard for me to imagine how this everything could happened to you. I'm sure that sometime you'll find right guy, who will love you and your son so much and make you feel special. I also wish you and your son to be healthy, happy and safe.
I'm also so badly angry because of people who started rumors...
Take care Sonia :* kisses from Poland.

Anonymous said...

Oh, you are so strong. We all know that you're a great mother, you don't have to proof that. Life is going on and I think in the future a lot of good things will happen to you and Jude :)

LaDonna said...

Like many others have written here it makes me sad (and mad!) that you felt you had to write this. YOU are Jude's mom, not anyone else... none of us should be telling you what you should do because we don't know what's best.. It's your life and you know what works for you. As only someone who sees you in videos I am AMAZED at everything you've gone through and still managed to be positive and Jude always looks so happy and outgoing, just a vibrant young boy - not many mothers would have been able to give their son that when going through such a rough time. You did! I come from a single mother so I salute you because it AINT EASY!

Remind yourself what an awesome family you have.. and your friends (you go Carl!) because you will see how great they are now when you need them :-)

I hope you will continue with your blog, youtube, and facebook but if you find you can't... don't think of us because we will understand. You gotta do what you gotta do and we all want you (and Jude!) healthy and happy!

Stay strong girl (f them haters!)

-LaDonna

Carisma said...

I will be thinking of you... <3

Anonymous said...

Hope u the best Sonia :)

BEdevotion said...

It still amazes me to this day that people feel it is acceptable to to hate on others or criticize their lives. Some idiots feel like just you make yt videos that gives them the right to intrude on any and all parts of your life. So many awesome gurus, including yourself, deal with this everyday and it sucks. And to make matters worse, you're already going through such a tough time in your life. Keep your head held high girl, you are doing what is best for yourself and most importantly your little man. I am a mom to a 2 yr old boy. He is my reason for living, the absolute light of my life. And I can tell that Jude is that for you. Please don't let others gets you down girl. It takes such strength to do what you are doing and walk away because you know it is what's best for Jude. You are a fantastic mother, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I know it can be hard sometimes...the mommy guilt is a killer. I'm constantly like I wish I didn't have to work full time, I wish I could be a stay at home mom, and spend more time with my son. But, with a mortgage and all the other bills my hubby and I need to the two paychecks. We all do what we can, in the best way possible. Don't let these haters under your skin. Sonia, you're an amazing person and wonderful mother! xxoo

Aki No Yuutsu said...

I love what you do, and you are very good at it. Your son is like an angel and so are you. Be strong.

arina said...

You give me (and thousands of other women, too) so much inspiration and hope. You exude confidence and strength and I admire you for managing to stick through it & continue making videos. How commendable! Seriously, you have such an amazing heart, and Jude is so lucky to have you as his mama! All the best for you, Jude & Kris. Que dios te bendiga siempre xoxox

Nani said...

Your awesome I started following you because I love your posts and your little man although I don't usually comment. Your doing the best you can with what you have and that's all that matters

Lyricallyness said...

Sonia,

Just know that there are People who Support you. In the end it's nobody's Business but your own.

Me myself, a single Mother as well who has gone through the struggle and Won. Let me Motivate you to keep Positive and Keep going.

It's not easy but honey with love from Family and Friends you can do it. From one single Mother to another, I truly have faith in you.

even through the darkest Day the light will Shine. Have Faith and surround yourself with positive people Love.

Much love, and Respect.
God bless

Ness.

makeup,hauls, and anything under the sun! said...

I'm sure one day, Jude will tell you how much he is lucky to have you as his mom! Be strong and stay beautiful! :)

ravenimperatrix said...

I'm a fairly new subscriber so I do not know much of what you've written about, but I will say this, you are a beautiful human being, inside more so than your outer shell. I know it can be hard, but don't let anyone else's opinion affect how you feel about yourself or keep you from doing what you know is right. Be strong, there are many who care for you, no matter what. It is unfortunate that gossips and haters have such loud and obnoxious voices. Just two words for the negative ninnys, "For Shame!"

Mimi said...

People should mind their own bussines,your private life is nobodys concern!You are beautiful woman (inside and out) and good mom to lil Jude.Wishing you all the best:)
Love and kisses:***

Karen said...

It's so disturbing that you felt the need to write this! I can't believe people are spreading rumors about your personal life and that they feel entitled to know what's going on with you and Kris. I can't imagine what your going thru! It must really suck having nosey a$$ strangers asking you and talking about something so personal! They just need to mind their own dam business!!! You do how to videos about fashion and makeup, not videos of your personal life!!! Really people? Sometimes people need to think first and put themselves in that persons shoes before they make stupid assumptions and talk crap! Maybe this world would be such a better place if people did that and stop being so dam negative!!! From your videos, ive seen your a great person and love your son dearly! Keep doing what you do girl! I love your videos and your blog! Love from another Latina. ****Karen****

keke said...

You are my role model. I am only 15, and have self esstem issues. You were the one that showed me how to be strong and never give up.

Marcela said...

That makes me sad cause I also im a single mother of 3 lovely kids and have been for about a year! I am only 23 and I love my life. I think you are doing an awesome job and as long as that matter who cares what other people say. I wish you the best of luck but I know you dont need it casue you'll be fine!

Anonymous said...

your a great mother and keep doing what your doing !!!! dont let no one bring you down!!! wish you the best

grecia said...

I totally perceive you as being a great mom and a sweet girl. This is about fashion, makeup, and fun and yes its unavoidable to speak about your life and its crazy to me how people just take it to another level. I definitely enjoy your blog and vids! Wish you the BEST.

aamugirl said...

I am a single mom of a 4 year old boy. I was 22 when I gave birth and I have been single since he was 2 weeks old. Don't worry you will be ok. Take time to heal and enjoy being by yourself and enjoy your son. Men take your attention from the kids anyway... hee hee hee. Enjoy your new found freedom.

Anonymous said...

Anybody who makes comments where they are putting you down and even spreading rumors do so because they have nothing better to do and need to get a life of their own. We can all criticize people for the decisions they make, but in reality, we never know what we would do until we are in that same situation. The best thing you can ever do is look out for your family's best interest and as long as you do what's best for you, baby Jude and Kris, you shouldn't even let anyone else's opinions or rumors get to you. Keep strong! You are an inspiration to so many of us strangers :)

Kaitlyn said...

you are such a strong woman to stand up for yourself and your family and write this but i wish you never even had to. nobody has the right to judge you and tell you how to live your life. i dont know you personally, but i see the love you have for your son in every one of your posts. i have no doubt you will always do what is best for him and your family. god bless and stay strong. you have so many supporters! <3

deann said...

Sonia ,

Can't believe you explaining yourself ???? Why why , your a great mom , let no one take that away from you .... Your strong , beautiful , and we all know how much you love Jude .... Stay strong , God bless you and your precious dunka.

Xoxo
Deanne

Beauty**WithIn said...

You do what you gotta do Girl. You don't have to explain to anybody!! You'll be fine!!

LizKS48 said...

Like so many have said, it's sad that you even had to write this. I learned a long time ago to stop listening to the "know it alls" and my life would be so much better and peaceful! Learn it well when you are young! Your business is just that, your business and it's not anyone's else's to tell you what to do and how to do it. Advice is better when asked for. Stay strong and stay close to God and you'll be fine.

Kaitlyn said...

you don't need to explain anything to anybody! it really is no one's business what is going on in your life and it's horrible how people gossip. putting yourself out there has to be very hard. you can only do what you think is best for you and your family and it doesn't matter what other people think. good luck with everything! i wish you and your family the best.

Anonymous said...

You don't need to give people an explanation about you personal life.The only one person on this earth who DESERVES an explanation is your son.Im one of your many yt subbies and so far i think your a great mom to your son and im really happy your thinking of going back to school!

CRiSTaL said...

It is really nobody's business whatever is going on with you and Kris. You can always share with us whatever you are feeling, because whatever you are going thru must be hard. Letting your feelings out might help a little, but we won't judge you. People who speculate things, are immature and have nothing better to do. Don't worry about them, those are people who are just being nosy and don't care when they make stupid comments.

Hope everything is turns out for the better, best wishes for the 3 of you. Que Dios Te Bendiga :)

Anonymous said...

hey sonia. i wish you nothing but luck and happiness in your life and in your son's life. i come to your blog often because i like watching your videos i also enjoy reading about the knowledge you have about make up and fashion. i feel for you because i am sure you are going through a different change in your life, but just remember that you dont need to explain yourself to anyone. let people think whatever they want. people will always talk no matter how hard you try to explain, people tend to misinterpret or assume things all the time. focus on yourself and your kid and let the haters hate. stay positive and i send nothing but love and healthy thoughts to you and your family. i will always be a fan of sccastaneda.

Hal said...

don't regard the internet hate sonia, it's so insignificant .. you have a beautiful boy and it looks like you've raised him wonderfully. when people on the internet found out my husband and I were having a baby I read all sorts of crap like I should be punched in the stomach, that kid will be sooo messed up, etc etc. people have no lives and are so ignorant. there is no handbook describing the way to be a 100% perfect parent. what may be good for one child may not be for another. no one, especially strangers, has the right to tell you when to stop breastfeeding your kid or what kind of relationship he should have with his dad. it's really sad that people even feel justified to give "pointers" of this nature. no one has ever been in your exact situation but yourself and you are doing a great job, your boy will be very proud of you when he's a man. xoxo

HALCOHOLIC.com

Sherry M said...

Amen!

tracy said...

Sonia, I am sorry to see you're going through this. I almost followed you from the first video you made on youtube, i followed you moved back to where you are, and happy for you when you announced you were pregnant till now. Please stay strong, and be always happy for what you have. I love you and love your son.
Wish you all the best in the future, and I really mean it.

Renee said...

Sonia,

There are a lot of people who admire you (including myself:)) you are an inspiration to more people than you know (like the 15 yr old that commented earlier). I love reading your blog and feel like you have become a friend. Thank you so much for sharing your very special life with us!!! I really enjoy your blog, keep doing what your doing! I pray God will bring you joy, love and peace into your life. Going back to school and being a single mom aren't easy, but you can do it!! Know that there are plenty of people cheering you on :)!!!

Anonymous said...

There are way more ppl full of love and support than people who are hateful, know that more want to see you succeed and be happy than not!!! Remember ppl are only nasty and mean when they hate themselves. Look at all those comments full of love and affirmation! Good for you, I hope this brings you comfort and support!!

Alejandra said...

I feel very sad to see you hurting like this.It actually made me tear up to read your post, because I see you as such a geniune sweet person.Im sure I'm not alone when I say that I do care about your well-being and happiness.Don't EVER let anyone put you down.Know your worth.Te queremos mucho Sonia.*can't help but cry again*
You're going to pull through.I know it! :)

Karla said...

Sonia,
I started following you on youtube about a year ago. I was a new mom too. And thought you were doing a great job with your beauty videos and being a MOM. I commend you for being real. You have allowed me to face my issues in my relationship with my husband. And even though I don't know you. I am just here to say, that as Latina women, we must stay strong and set examples for our children especially our sons. So that they become great husbands and fathers.

Please read my blog: http://kekerivera.blogspot.com/

Elle said...

It's very sad that you even had to write this post, but I have seen how many rude comments and accusations people have made on your previous posts and it's unreal. Jude appears to be a happy little "dunka" (-; and that's all that matters... Your personal life is really none of our business... Although, true supporters do like some insight because we want to encourage you, however, in the end it's truly not our business. I hope nothing but the best for you and will keep you and Jude in my prayers during your tough time. It will get easier Sonia, I've been where you are right now... just not so publicly but it WILL get better!!

<3

Anonymous said...

Hey :) Firstly, that post was beautifully written and incredibly poliet and subtle. You seem smart. I hope that you feel better soon and regain your confidence.

However, although i totally agree that people should respect your privacy I also think that prehaps being rather vocal about your personal life and son is partly to blame. Its COMPELETLY your desicion on what you put out on the internet for the world to see but if you always write about how wonderful your son is and how you and Kris were such amazing parents then you are bound to get messages. Dont get me wrong, I love the way you adore your son, and like every parent think that your child is the best. But prehaps not the whole world needs to know. Im just saying. Sometimes it can come across slightly big headed and arrogant.

Your a lovely,lovely person and I wrote this because I thought you would understand.

Much Love and Luck
xx

yesivinn said...

You should not have to justify your life to anyone, but the fact that you took your time to explain something that is no ones business but your own shows what type of person you are :) stay strong and I wish nothing but the best for you and your adorable Jude!
xoo

sssdawna said...

you are not alone!! anyone with a brain can see how much you love your family. stay strong!! : )

Anonymous said...

I think you are very brave to write this and it is honestly nobody's business to judge you or your family. Good luck with school and keep doing what yuor doing! :)

Anonymous said...

I completely agree with what this person wrote!!!
they took the words right out of my mouth!

i love all of your videos and blog posts sonia!
keep it up!!! and stay strong! :)

_________________________________________________


Hey :) Firstly, that post was beautifully written and incredibly poliet and subtle. You seem smart. I hope that you feel better soon and regain your confidence.

However, although i totally agree that people should respect your privacy I also think that prehaps being rather vocal about your personal life and son is partly to blame. Its COMPELETLY your desicion on what you put out on the internet for the world to see but if you always write about how wonderful your son is and how you and Kris were such amazing parents then you are bound to get messages. Dont get me wrong, I love the way you adore your son, and like every parent think that your child is the best. But prehaps not the whole world needs to know. Im just saying. Sometimes it can come across slightly big headed and arrogant.

Your a lovely,lovely person and I wrote this because I thought you would understand.

Much Love and Luck
xx

Anonymous said...

Sonia, you are a strong woman. Many gurus are just that, people who post videos that instruct others how to put on some makeup. However, you have never posted a video or blogpost that's not been true to who you are. For that reason, you go above and beyond and show how genuine you are. I am glad to have someone to look up to.

I wish you the best with your family, even though you have proven that you take fate into your own hands. Keep your spirits up. You're a wonderful person.


-A grateful subscriber.

linsay said...

Stay strong, hope you the best :)

ROROSWAN said...

I really love you. I think you are a amazing strong women and i wish you all the best in life. I truly do xXx

Grumpy Mom said...

No matter what you do, you will not please everyone. There will always be a person who will try to "read between the lines" or take your words out of context or just make assumptions based on what they believe to be the truth. The only people you need to worry about is yourself and Jude. Your happiness will be reflected in everything you do and he will see that. Be content in knowing that you are doing the best you know how and everything else will just fall into place. I wish you and Jude the best of luck through this.

Grace G. said...

Dear Sonia,

I am one of your youtube subscribers and visit your blog from time to time. I had no idea of what had happened between you and Kris, and am truly very sad to know that you two are no longer together. Many women know exactly what it is that you're going through, and it saddens and upsets me that anyone would want to put you down. It looks to me that you're making the very best of a difficult time in your life and I admire you for it.

I would also like to address the breastfeeding issue, as it is something very near and dear to my heart. Please continue to breastfeed for as long as you find it necessary for your son, and as long as it makes you both happy. Society has such a negative attitude towards extended breastfeeding even though it is excellent for a child's health and really what nature intended. If he were still on a bottle, and continued to be on a bottle til he was three years old, less people would make a fuss out of it, but breastfeed past one year and people think it's weird. It's not. My son is now past two years old and is still breastfeeding. I'm working on weaning him slowly, but I don't regret having breastfed him this long because it's what works for us and makes us happy. Wean him when you feel it's the right time do it, not when others tell you that you should.

Again, I wish only the best for you, your son, and even Kris. God bless you.

Anonymous said...

You are a very brave young woman to address all of your followers etc. I admire you for having the courage to talk about it and to be so mature and understanding. You are an amazing person. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. God and your family willhelp you through this. I have been there too. I completely empathize with you. Jude is very lucky to have such a wonderful mom to put his needs first. Being a mom is one of the most rewarding achievements in life. Tip for breastfeeding; Drink lots of avena or oatmeal. Bacalao is good too for helping to produce more milk. I will say a prayer for you and your family. I really enjoy watching your videos. Que dios te bengias y te guradas. LadyLuvLatina

elyane said...

There is some really sick people out in this world that think getting in another persons business makes there life so much better. You are a great mother and all the hateful comments out there cant take that away from you. Stay strong and you be you! We all think you rock!!!

Anonymous said...

Obviously he cheated on her. This is very sad and I hope you are okay. I remember in one of your videos (with Kris), you mentioned that someone had sent you a message (on myspace or facebook) that she had hooked up with Kris, and you blew it off by saying that wasn't possible because you two were always together. But, you could tell by the look on his face... Sorry to hear this, but you will prevail. You are strong and a wonderful mother.

Anonymous said...

i love you sonia.
im 14 and i live in england and i completely love you.
you are a good mama,good make up guru,a good friend and a good wife.
i know i dont know you as a person and so it kinda sounds silly to say all that,but thats how you come across.
As bubbly,funny,laidback,generous
and caring person.I aspire to be like you because you have such a good attitude and you always put me in a good mood.
i love your figure and its NOT a block of cheese and you do have calf muscles! you should see mine,HUGE! :)
you always look pretty,even with crazy scary make up on-like in your halloween video(:
and you are grateful for everything,you appreciate everything you have such as jude and your subsribers.
i just frickin' love you!
and by the way im 'pookiesmiley' on you tube-im a subsriber and cant wait for your next video <3

*Latina Kisses* :)
Ella x

Anonymous said...

Hi,
Hope your feeling better ironic enough I read this on this blog.

"The greatest irony of love is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after they walk out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little."

http://anniepop.blogspot.com/2010/04/greatest-irony-of-love.html

I hope you keep your head up high and stay happy and enjoy your life with your beautiful son.

Take care and God Bless you.

Mimz said...

I really give you props for being strong and sharing your private life with your viewers. From one mom to another I understand all you may be going thru, but as the saying goes, if it doesn't kill you it will only make you stronger. Best of wishes for you and your family & may you accomplish all your goals you set out. I will continue to be a fan and follow you on your journey. Thanks for being you.

Skater Girl said...

I just read this.. It sad that people are so judgemental coz they couldn't put you in their own box..
Anyway, just do what is right in your own way as you know best.. Wishing you and the little one well.. :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Sonia, I understand you and I really believe that you are doing a great job with your son and I know that you deserve the best. I know how hard it is to be a single mom.. Thank you for sharing this with us. I wish you nothing but the best.. =0)

Diana said...

its sad but you are a great mother and person! btw women like you are admirable! blessings!

Meli said...

Sonia,
I'm so sorry you're experiencing all of this. Honestly, I had no idea. I was just watching your Sexy Clubbing Makeup video and the second you mentioned dropping Jude off at his Dad's, that sent off a red flag. We don't know each other at all but I wish I had your phone # to contact you personally. You inspire so many through your YouTube videos and I wish you could help me out on a more serious topic. I don't know the details of your relationship or break up but I'd like to know how you're coping? My 10 year relationship has come to an end, we still live together until March due to financial commitments. I am depressed, heartbroken, sad, sleep deprived, I don't eat, and I feel like I just want to ball myself up and not even wake up. Surrounding myself with friends and family is not working which I expect for you to tell me that that is one way you're coping. Its just not working for me. I know time heals but it seems like I can't even wait for the time to pass. Help.

Anonymous said...

I hope everything works out. Jude is so adorable when you went to the mommy and me class. I feel your pain for Jude not having two parents because my parents are not together. You are really strong for talking about it. Try not to listen to the haters and rude people.
Best Wishes & Happy Thanksgiving! Wish you the best ( and Kris to)

Anonymous said...

so sad that you had to write a note to nosey people that are judging you and your life. you are a beautiful person and doing the best for you and your beautiful little boy and no one should be worrying about what you do with your life! they sadly dont have a life so they feel the need to judge yours.
you are a beauitful woman and stay strong for you and your son!<3

Anonymous said...

Girl iw as about to start crying.. when i read the last part.. keep your head up girl.. u know that in life someons always going to try and push you donw.. for me being gay is the hardest part.. and having to deal with fam do doesnt accept it is hard.. but.. just keep you head up.. and good luck with the whole school thing i hope it works out amazing for you..

with love

hairbytony.

Anonymous said...

I look up to you sonia. keep strong girl you have a lot of people who care about you.


diana

Anonymous said...

I HOPE ALL TURNS OUT FOR THE BEST, BUT REALLY THEIR IS NO REASON TO WRITE THIS, ITS NOT ANYONES BUISNESS
EITHER WAY UR LOOKING GREAT, CAN U TELL US ABOUT UR DIET PLEASE

-YazmiinAktar- said...

may god give us the strenghth and energy for us to survive through the bad, hard and good times, much love YazmiinAktar xx

Diana Flórez :) said...

Sonia
You are such an amazing woman!!!
I think that your life will be full of awesome and incredible things, I hope that God bless You and Jude! I also hope you can be amazingly happy! Well I only wanted give you my support! :) Sorry about my English, I´m from Colombia and I'm not quite good using the language! Hugs and a lot of good wishes! <3

Diana :D

Anonymous said...

I know that every heartbreak is different but I, as I'm sure many other single mothers, understand what you are going through. I struggled to accept and love myself and often searched for validation from others...especially men. Until I found him. A man that loved me and promised me forever. And when I promised him the same I meant it and I gave him a son. When our son was 6 weeks he left me and its obvious his love for me is gone . I'm sad to say I knew we were over before he made it official but it still hurts. It hurts so bad. Especially knowing that my son won't have the family life I know he deserves.

Sorry to tell me whole life story but I really feel like your blog and videos have inspired me to live life and move on for my son. I never have felt beautiful, being overweight w/o the perks of big boobs or butt(in fact the exact opposite) but you show me how to accent what I do have. I had my baby only 3 months ago so Im even bigger than before and that seems to be all anyone talks about but now when I try your makeup styles they compliment my look and are happy that I care enough about myself to take care of ME.

I have you to thank for that. A funny girl with great tips and advice who let me into her life to share her tricks all the way from California. I appreciate you for being strong enough to put yourself out there for people like me to know they are not alone. You are a wonderful mommy, and Jude is a BEAUTIFUL young man. You know who are, and you owe no person any explanation. Stay strong, beautiful, and kind. For yourself, your son, and your SUBBIES. :)

-SRW

Cari said...

I really hope from the bottom of my heart that everything turn out for the best what ever that might be because only you know what it is.

Im a mother of two a boy and a girl and I know what having a child does to a girl. Turns life a full 360. So you and your little one are in my prayers.


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